I heart friends, but can still let them go.

I am a sap when it comes to my friends. I forgive and forgive again for disappointments, hurt and even outright backstabbing sometimes. I find it difficult to reach my limit on my friends' bullshit partially because I'm so damn busy that it may be days or weeks before I notice they're being a shit. Once upon a time that wasn't so, but it was before my daughter was in the picture and brought middle school issues.

I have several irons in the fire at the moment and on a couple of them, I've asked a friend to participate. I get promises of assistance. I get promises of deadlines to be met. I get a lot of wind is what it comes down to, and this has gone on for months. Once upon a time I would have shrugged it off and also let the project go thinking perhaps if they didn't think it was a worthwhile venture, then maybe it wasn't. This time, I ain't playing it like that.

I have a huge vision for one of my projects. Hell it even involves my being interviewed by Matt Lauer on the TODAY show (I've had a crush on him since forever). People who have known me a long time know that when I envision a goal and begin the work, I meet the goal. My commitment to projects got me to every place I've ever lived and every job I've ever had. It will take me through the end on this one.  

Thankfully, I had another friend who wants to do this project with me. There's a lot to do, and I need help, but there's going to be some REALLY cool fun things along the way. I can be a terrific taskmaster, but I take time out to celebrate (and will spend the money to do so), so it's cool to be on my team.

As for the friend, I wrote a nice letter that I'll never send to them. I was generous. I was forgiving, but I'm done.